Spiraling

I’m spiraling down into the gray. It’s been a while since I’ve fallen this far. I suppose part of it is because the school year is coming to a close and although I’m looking forward to summer vacation, I’m also dreading it. At least when school is in session I have a routine to follow. There’s something to do and students to interact with. There’s an expectation of being involved in life.

But down I’m going. Everything that bothers me is crowding my head. I can’t think positive about anything other than I’m positive I suck. I feel heavy and not because I’m morbidly obese. Disappointment is filling me; disappointment in people, family, writing. I still can’t even get excited for my Daughtry concert because I’ve allowed my expectations to get too high.

Spiraling is terrible just like the gray. All I see is everything that’s wrong. It just sucks me down. 

Dana :-|