It's almost October, my birthday month. I don't look forward to it at all. Turning another year older has only bothered me these last couple of years (what do I have to show for my years on this planet?). The main reason I dread my birthday is that I have incredibly bad birthday luck. In the month leading up to my 10/19 birthday (and even in the couple weeks after) bad things have happened to me, my family and the world.
It started in 1987 (my sweet 16) with Black Monday (the stock market crashed) and has continued through to this year (I'll be 41). 25 years of bad luck. It beats a person down.
This year's bad luck is that the much-loved bass player (JP) of my favorite band (Daughtry) has decided to leave the band. :( I almost feel like I should apologize that my birthday bad luck has rubbed off to my Daughtry twitter peeps. :(
(UPDATE: JP CAME BACK SO ALL IS GOOD NOW!)
So, what are some of the other bad birthday luck incidences? Here's the high (low?) lights:
- every single member of my family (including me) has been sick on my birthday and more than once also
- an earthquake in San Francisco
- my dad showed the first signs of his cancer on my 17th birthday
- a high school friend/classmate passed away from leukemia (ironically the type of cancer I would be diagnosed with 18 years later)
- Sammy (one of my cats) got hit by a car and died a few days later
- my family actually celebrated my birthday without me one year
- the Afghan war began less than a month after 9/11
- my mom fell and broke her arm on my birthday in 2007 and forced her into retirement after 50 years as a nurse
- no validation of me (no big celebration for my 40th, I finished chemo during October 2009 which is usually a big deal but was not acknowledged by anyone)
My family even believes in the luck and one year we actually celebrated my birthday in a different month to see if we could fool the bad luck but it didn't work.
I really don't even want to acknowledge my birthday anymore. It's stressful just waiting for the bad luck to hit. It's already hit once this year (JP) but I can't relax because there have been many years where multiple incidents have happened. I worry what my blood test results will reveal when I go in to the Cancer Center on 10/5.
I hate my birthday.
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