Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Writing Held Hostage



One thing I use, besides the endless medications that may or may not work, to help me through my depression is my writing. For the most part, my writing has been immune to my depression which is good as it gives me something to get lost in as I’m dragged further into these awful gray days. On occasion, however, the depression leeches onto my creativity and holds it hostage.

As I continue to polish my Deceptions trilogy (I have no idea of the status of those opportunities which is frustrating), I started a poetry project. It started to fall victim to my depression over the weekend and finally, succumbed last night. Hopefully, I’ll be able to pick it back up soon because A) I enjoyed what I was doing with it and B) I’m tired of my depression affecting things that give me pleasure.

I’ve written a few times that the two things that help me through my depression is my writing and the Daughtryverse but sometimes the Daughtryverse can make my depression worse. (That’s a story I won’t be sharing on my blog.) So there are a few times where all I have is my writing and when my depression robs me of that, it’s horrible.

Writing is my escape and when I don’t have that, it’s not so fun. Time slows down, absolutely nothing interests me, and I either have no appetite (which is not a good thing for a fat girl) or I eat everything in sight (again, which is not a good thing for a fat girl).

All I can do now, is wait for my creativity to be released unharmed.

Dana

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